I’ve had months where I hated my company. That’s a strange thing to admit when I’ve spent years talking about helping founders build companies they’ll love forever. But I’ve come to understand that those two things aren’t contradictory.
Building a company you love doesn’t mean loving every minute of building it.
I’ve learned that the months I feel like I hate my company are usually telling me something. I’m spending too much time in work I thought I’d handed off, or I’m avoiding a hard conversation I already know I need to have. That feeling of frustration I get isn’t random.
My instinct is to do what I can to make the feeling disappear. Reorganize, change the strategy, find something else to fix. But I’ve gotten better at resisting that temptation and looking more closely at what the frustration is trying to tell me.
When I look back at the months I hated, something had usually changed that I was still trying to handle the old way. The company had grown, but I was still relying on my own effort to make up for what wasn’t working. And more often than I’d like to admit, I was part of the problem.
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Growth changes what our companies need from us and from the people we lead. We don’t always recognize that change right away.
So, when running your company starts to feel harder than it should, what’s that feeling trying to show you?